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cherryflavouredgirl has like 500 messages....
quite reasonable considering it's probably the first time in a month or so that i sit in front of the computer for more than 5'...
but it's a lot, i'm tired, my neck hurts, it's too early for me to be awake and.. those pink pills running in my veins too...
i hate taking medications
i hate it 'cause their always high doses 'cause apparently normal ones don't have the right effect on me
something on my blood, same thing with drinks...
and this month: a wedding, two birthdates, too many family parties that demanded my presence
probably some other things that i can't remember...
my head is a place i really don't like right now...
but 10 am is almost over...
for some weird reason life sucks between 8.30 and 11 am, other than that i'm quite happy
neverminding the pain on my neck, the dizzy feeling, the guilt of deleting the 100 journals i had on my devwatch(i really didn't like it, but in my present state i wouldn't remember anyway) and the horrible need to get some sleep, i'm fantastic...
thats the 11am thing..
and someone is listening fly me to the moon, that's cute...
but.. i'm probably drugged.. I think i am..
and somehow i'm happy... stupidly happy
like when you finally get to go to bed slightly drunk after going out with your friends...
ok, i'll stop boring you, i have to go get a lot of chocolate or anything with sugar
take care!